I Feel Like A Black Cloud

I would like to say that I am not addicted to Pokies, but unfortunately in my head I know it to be true. What is fair to say is that I feel like a black cloud, and I am bad luck to all around me.

For me the issue is the more afraid I am of impeding debt - mortgage, personal loan, out of control credit cards - the more I look at Pokies to try to ease the troubles. Stupid to think really, and more stupider is that I believe that if I wasn't so much in Financial difficulty than I wouldn't play them.

I am trying hard to clear my debts, but getting down to $2 - $3 a week from a decent wage, it is depressing.

I only started playing them a couple of years ago, but now it is really bad and I am scared to death.